Hi guys :)

I know I have been neglecting all of you and my journal but now I have finally time again. I got transferred into the governmental department and now work normal hours again, which means that livejournal got me back and that´s good because I have so much to write, anyway I´m really going to try and get up-to-date and maybe explore a few new groups here.

And just to let you all know about my current obsessions:

Stargate Atlantis (totally Ronon and Rodney obsessed - wanted that kiss between Ronon and Jen really bad - And yeah kinda don´t like Sam in the mix, doesn´t really belong to Atlantis)

Supernatural (hopefully Sam goes really bad - Bella kicks ass but please no love interest, oh and can someone please kill Ruby?)

Heroes (found the coolest guy on tv: Hiro)

Football (hate Arsenal with a passion - let Manchester win it again - Spain takes it all 2008)


oh and my absolute favourite song right now is "Apologize" by OneRepuplic (not the crap Timbaland version - the real one)

Title: The Worst
Rating: R (language)
Warnings: some bad words
Pairing: Cristiano Ronaldo/Wayne Rooney
Disclaimer: This story is complete fiction
Summary: The worst thing that ever happened to you, was falling in love.

A/N:kinda sequel to my other Story The Best


( ...The worst is Ronny though, for him losing is incomprehensible  )

Title: The Best
Rating: R
Warnings: bad language
Pairing: Cristiano Ronaldo/Wayne Rooney
Disclaimer: This story is complete fiction
Summary: He know´s it´s all about his arrogant self


( ...when the ball hits the net and you know it is all about you )

Hi guys,

okay so this is a farewell for a short time, today I got my finale schedule and I have to be at the base tomorrow for preparatory training and after that I am going to the border for about 5 weeks...well at least I got off on the 9th and 10th for my birthday (yay! ..that actually was really important to me) so maybe I´m gonna check in and say a quick hello saturday or sunday ;)

oh and I don´t wanna go before saying to Soph: thank you so so much for the song (I did get it) it´s amazing and the whole mix tape was just fabulous (I really gonna enjoy listening to it on the train) I´m gonna miss you babe *hug*

but of course I´m gonna miss ya all oh and Tere I´ll be soon sarting my spanish classes and I am *so* going to harass you with my Spanish after that ;)

Anyway, I´m off now..

*hugs*
Sonya

Title: Farewell
Rating: Pg-13
Pairing: Xabi Alonso/Steven Gerrard
Disclaimer: This story is complete fiction
Summary: It was never meant to be a love story


( It was never about love, never a love story but it was love all the same... )

Title: Found
Rating: Pg-13
Pairing: David Beckham; David Beckham/Iker Casillas
Disclaimer: This story is complete fiction
Summary: It´s hard to find what is missing in your life

A/N: I am surely no Beckham girl (I don´t really like the person, I guess) but I adore David Beckham as a professional football player and lately I thought about him a lot (but oh dear god I hate his new hair colour) and somehow this came up, I hope someone likes it and even if not, helpful criticism is always very much appreciated

( Others did try to judge him... )

Title: Losses
Rating: Pg-13 (for one not-so-nice word)
Pairing: Xabi Alonso/Steven Gerrard
Disclaimer: This story is complete fiction
Warnings: Angst (like it´s always with me)
Summary: What else are you about to lose?
Prompt: 11 Losses


A/N: I can´t get over the fact that we played brilliantly in the first half and fought so hard throughout the whole game but didn´t get any reward and after the game I just felt so damn empty that I had to write something, so here it is and a major hug to all the fellow Liverpool supportes who don´t believe this...

( In Istanbul we fell in love, in Athen's we fell apart )

Title: The difference in love (4/4)
Rating: R
Pairing: Xabi Alonso/Steven Gerrard
Warnings: Angst, some bad words
Disclaimer: This story is complete fiction.....
Summary: Aftershocks
Chapters: #1 | #2 | #3


A/N: Last part finally...I don´t know what to say, I re-wrote this like a thousand times but this is the best end I could come up with, so I hope you like the last part of this series and a very big thank you to all of you who always left feedback and who supported me, it really meant a lot.


( I've never been perfect but neither have you )

Title: Antidote
Rating: R
Pairing: Xabi Alonso/Steven Gerrard
Disclaimer: This story is complete fiction
Warnings: Angst (like it´s always with me)
Summary: There is purpose in pain

( Why didn´t you kiss me?... )

Title: Once upon a time...
Rating: Nc-17
Pairing: Xabi Alonso/Steven Gerrard
Disclaimer: This story is complete fiction any copyright material I mention is not mine and so on and so on...
Warnings: It´s a bit dark and some rough sex
Summary: All Stevie wants to do is getting Xabi out of his system

A/N: New territory for me so I hope some people are actually going to enjoy this, if not, helpful criticism is always very much appreciated


( and they lived happily ever after... )

Title: Anything but love
Rating: R
Pairing: Xabi Alonso/Íker Casillas
(implied Xabi Alonso/Steven Gerrard; Xabi Alonso/Nagore )
Disclaimer: This story is complete fiction.....
Summary: Xabi needs something from Iker that nobody else can give him...

Challenge: footballslash11
Prompt: 06 Appearances


( you don´t feel like holding him forever... )

Title: Lovers
Rating: R
Pairing: Xabi Alonso/Mikel Arteta (implied Xabi Alonso/Steven Gerrard)
Disclaimer: This story is complete fiction.....
Summary: Maybe you´re not in love at all...

A/N: first story for my footballslash11 challenge


( You promised yourself it wouldn´t hurt )

Title: The difference in love (3/4)
Rating: R
Pairing: Xabi Alonso/Steven Gerrard
Warnings: Angst but this time we even have some fluff
Disclaimer: This story is complete fiction.....
Summary: Alex is trying to let go, Stevie wants nothing more but to hold on and Xabi, well Xabi has to make a decision...

A/N: Hardest part to write so far but it actually turned out the way I wanted it to (and yeah that is a big accomplishment for me ;) )
I hope you all enjoy it as much as the other two parts and I really want to say thank you again for all the comments that kept me going and yeah feedback is love but you all know that anyway ;)

And many thanks to the amazing random_eyeliner for the beta, *hugs*


First Part
Second Part


( Love you think lately, is really nothing more than an insult )

My first time doing a challenge (and isn´t the first time always the best anyway? ;) )

Alright since I claimed Xabi Alonso from footballslash11 I can´t wait to start writing...

		01.	Tactics
02.	Home.	03.	Halves.	04.	National team	05.	Grass
06.	Appearances	07.	Opinions	08.	Lovers	09.	Teammates
		10.	Wins	11.	Losses

Title: Power
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Xabi Alonso/Steven Gerrard
Warnings: It’s kinda dark but not really
Disclaimer: This story is complete fiction.....
Summary: All I want is you


A/N: This challenge is something I did loads of times for my literature class. You have to pick a song or poem and then write your own story using one line after another every paragraph that you write, you have to interpret it in your own way and words but you have to chose a topic which you have to stick by, for Xabi and Stevie I picked "power" using the song "I Think I’m Paranoid" from Garbage. The original song lines are in bold.

special thanks to random_eyeliner for being an amazing beta-reader and a quick one too *hugs*

So I hope you all enjoy it (even though it’s pretty random) and feedback, of course, is love :)

( ...knowing you without boundaries is the greatest turn-on for me.  )

Title: The difference in love, Part two (2/4)
Rating: R (I think)
Pairing: Xabi Alonso/Steven Gerrard
Warnings: Angst, a lot of angst
Disclaimer: This story is complete fiction.....
Summary: Living without you is the worst thing of all

A/N: Again we have three point of views (Stevie, Alex, Xabi), it´s still a lot of angst and heartbreak involved but just remember: the more it hurts now the better it feels at the end ;) and I just wanted to say thank you to all of you who have replyed to the fist part, it really helped me getting this one out sooner

And many thanks to the amazing random_eyeliner for the beta, *hugs*

First Part

( You trusted him to save you, never thought Xabi could be in need of a saviour too )

[18] Liverpool Icons

[9] Steven Gerrard
[7] Xabi Alonso
[2] Steven Gerrard/Xabi Alonso

Teaser:



( you´ll never walk alone )

Title: Untitled
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Xabi Alonso/Steven Gerrard
Warnings: mostly fluff :)
Disclaimer: This story is complete fiction.....
Summary: Xabi, Stevie and their life together

A/N: I´ve seen this kind of fictions written before and thought it could be fun.

And a lot of credit goes to random_eyeliner for being my beta-reader.

( Alonso, after all, doesn´t have to know everything that goes on in his head, his heart though he knows without limitation. )

Title: The difference in love
Rating: R (I think)
Pairing: Xabi Alonso/Steven Gerrard
Warnings: Angst, a lot of angst
Disclaimer: This story is complete fiction.....
Summary: Love can be cruel sometimes but never lose hope.

A/N: This story is written in three different point of views. Alex´s, Steven´s and Xabi´s and it pretty much deals with the aftershocks of the truth finally coming out. That was so hard for me to write and I am pretty sure I blew it but I would love to hear different opinions about it and yeah..anyway have fun reading
oh btw this story isn´t beta read and I didn´t read it twice of fear deleting everything if I would.

Okay yay I finally found a beta-reader and I am so thankful for that, so a lot of the credit goes to random_eyeliner


( The same wall that shuts others out is the same wall that shuts you in )

Title: The England Confusion
Rating: PG
Pairing: Xabi Alonso/Steven Gerrard
Disclaimer: This story is complete fiction.....
Summary:Xabi doesn´t understand england

A/N: okay so I have honestly no idea why the hell I wrote this, it just popped into my head and I couldn´t get it out so..yeah sorry to all of you who are going to read it ;)

( If I don´t understand england, I don´t want england to understand me )